Irrelevant note: apparently I can type something like jnirr into my phone and it’ll figure out that I mean knitting.  Do I really talk about it that much?  I found that out when sending this picture to myself.

knitting, knitted things, my living room and kitchen

Sharp eyes will note the scarves (knitted by me: naughty little cable scarf, 1x1 ribbed noro scarf)) draped over the throw (sadly, not knitted by me but purchased from pottery barn via eBay in a months-long hunt after seeing it on House but I'm planning on reverse-engineering it, eventually) draped, in turn, over my secondhand Ikea Poäng chair. There's also a teensy glimpse of a Quant, also knitted by me, ungracefully clumped on the seat of the chair.

I’ve been up all night.   My life has been full of more complicated and upsetting problems that usual, of the sort that I don’t and won’t talk about on the Internet in any form, which have basically put me out of commission for anything other than sleeping all day and maybe watching the occasional movie in between crying or blocking everything out.  This has been going on for the entirety of my “Spring Break” (and let’s not even mention the week before, in which I squeaked by during my last week of my rotation on nothing more than determination to not fail out and so much sleep deprivation that nothing seemed real) and finally I just couldn’t even sleep at all this past night and did incredibly useful things instead, like playing with Facebook, watching 20-minute documentaries about 30-second commercials, and starting to work through the massive YouTube archive of The Ellen Degeneres Show clips.

Yeah, well.  At least I got some knitting done.  Lately I’ve been carrying my knitting bag around with me like a security blanket, not even taking out the knitting but just…having it there.  Just in case I feel up to it.  Tonight was the first time I actually knitted for I-don’t-kn0w-how-long, though.  Oh, there is a small messy pile of calendar blocks on the other side table.  I shall do some iPhone photo magic:

calendar squares and assorted other shapes

This crappy picture was cunningly taken at arm's length so I don't have to move.

So, I did make some progress with those little guys.  I keep meaning to make a post about them showing them all off, but, you know, stuff happened.

So it’s almost 10 AM now.  (I just noticed that this blog’s time is an hour early.  Wish I knew how to fix that setting.)  I should probably just try to stay up through the day, have caffeine or whatever and try to at least make it to the afternoon and take a nap at most.  I hope I do that.  I might just sleep all day again.

The ends are defeated! I finished the ends on the second of David’s hats, a green and black Botanic (Ravelry link), inspired by juniperjune’s, (the first one was black and green since I bought twice the yarn I needed). I also finished defeating the enormous (for me) number of ends on a scarf I started knitting for myself but turned out to be for my mom (the Bumble Up Scarf, similar to the picture but with a nice grey as the main color). I’ll try to post pictures tomorrow, but more likely on Thursday when I’ll be home during the sunny hours.

A large number of hours of Legend of the Stupid were watched during this weaving-in extravaganza.

I know this is one of the most disjointed posts I’ve written lately.  I’m sorry, really.  I’m preoccupied with a number of school and life things that knitting is just not enough to completely soothe.  It helps, but… there’s still a lot on my mind.  I’m really looking forward to graduating and possibly having a chance to actually settle into a more routine existence where my biggest hurdle is actually how big my stash is or how many projects I still have on the needles.  (I can hope, anyway…)

My newest knitting malady is wanting to knit everything I see anyone wearing around.  Braided-cable-hat?  Ooh, I bet I could knit that!  I should cast on!  Striped sweater hung inside-out on the coat rack hanging from the door of our office?  Hmm, how is that seamed?  It only looks like a sixe XXXL, I bet I could make that in, um, a few…months?

It doesn’t take too long before I’m completely overwhelmed and NEVER GOING TO KNIT A STITCH AGAIN BECAUSE I CAN’T KNIT EVERYTHING.  Why can’t I afford a knitting machine (which I’m not sure I even really want in my saner times, since really, I knit because I like to knit)?  Why don’t I have two extra pairs of arms so I can knit and study and eat dinner all at the same time?  Why don’t I have infinite free time so I can knit everything this season now now now? (Never mind the fact that if I had a lot of free time my projects would probably stall even harder.)

I think what I really want is to finish a few projects so I can feel like I’ve gotten something done, but I’m also resisting finishing projects for some reason (possibly related to the hated WEAVING IN OF THE ENDS).  Really, a half hour of work would create a finished scarf and hat.  I could get so many brownie points towards ending the yarn diet!

So my goal for tonight is to work on something more finishable-in-the-short-term than the Girasole, as much as I love the Girasole.  The Girasole w0n’t be finished tonight and it won’t be finished until I order more of those foam blocking pads because it is going to be way, way, way, (and did I say WAY?) too large for my current ones.  So, tonight: scarf or hat.  Then tomorrow I’ll take pictures for the blog if the sun cooperates.  There.  And I’ll wind the yarn for David’s scarf so he can stop having blue fuzz on his neck from his old one.  And I’ll probably watch more of the world’s stupidest TV fantasy series and not feel guilty becuase dammit, I’m getting knitting done!

Note: There are no comments on this entry because for some reason it was attracting a hideous amount of canned ham product (I’m superstitious about  even naming it here).  Comment on another one if you have something to say for some reason. :)

I brought my knitting with me to school.  I brought my knitting to school in a hopital. Yeah, that’s right (um, bitches?  I’m supposed to say “bitches,” here, I think?), I’m on rotation and I am going to freaking find some time to knit, already.

I’ll try to snap some iPhone shots of myself hiding in the library with my knitting later.  Yes, that is my plan.  Me, medical library, knitting, and possibly a library-approved drinking container of coffee.  I am a wild woman.

N…no.

There just didn’t seem to be enough time. I think I kind of ended up trading my knitting time for exciting new food available at the new local bar. It was worth it, I think, but..

But…

I really really want to break this pattern. I want to churn out the finished-ends-weaved-in-perfect-in-every-way-except-for-whatever-mistakes-that-are-totally-forgiveable objects. I want to wear a different hat every day (when it’s cold enough). I want to make every pair of exciting gloves with transformation power that I see. I want to cover my apartment in throws and cabled pillows. I want to be a knitter again!

…I also want a nap. Is that going to win today? (Well, after I get home in a few more hours…)

I started this blog on the spur of the moment because lately I’ve been having trouble actually getting any knitting done, and I’m trying to restart myself. I read knitting blogs and book, I’m listening to a knitting audiobook, and often I drag my knitting around with me and sometimes even pull it out but don’t get started.

I have to admit it. I’m in a knitting slump.

As much as I want to get the beautiful projects done, as much as I want to master new patterns and as much as I want that feeling of relaxation and productivity from feeling the yarn move through my fingers and into that magically-growing fabric, I haven’t gotten so much as a row done in at least a month. It’s been years since I posted any pictures or any projects in Ravelry. I’ve even tried to motivate myself to finish things by going on a yarn diet until I finish some of my projects (and not even disliked ones)!

So maybe putting it out there will help kick-start me out of this weird lack-of-knitting habit and back into my true existance as a knitter. It couldn’t hurt, could it? (Especially when I’m blogging during, ahem, borrowed time during school and not cutting into possible knitting time at all.)

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