Irrelevant note: apparently I can type something like jnirr into my phone and it’ll figure out that I mean knitting.  Do I really talk about it that much?  I found that out when sending this picture to myself.

knitting, knitted things, my living room and kitchen

Sharp eyes will note the scarves (knitted by me: naughty little cable scarf, 1x1 ribbed noro scarf)) draped over the throw (sadly, not knitted by me but purchased from pottery barn via eBay in a months-long hunt after seeing it on House but I'm planning on reverse-engineering it, eventually) draped, in turn, over my secondhand Ikea Poäng chair. There's also a teensy glimpse of a Quant, also knitted by me, ungracefully clumped on the seat of the chair.

I’ve been up all night.   My life has been full of more complicated and upsetting problems that usual, of the sort that I don’t and won’t talk about on the Internet in any form, which have basically put me out of commission for anything other than sleeping all day and maybe watching the occasional movie in between crying or blocking everything out.  This has been going on for the entirety of my “Spring Break” (and let’s not even mention the week before, in which I squeaked by during my last week of my rotation on nothing more than determination to not fail out and so much sleep deprivation that nothing seemed real) and finally I just couldn’t even sleep at all this past night and did incredibly useful things instead, like playing with Facebook, watching 20-minute documentaries about 30-second commercials, and starting to work through the massive YouTube archive of The Ellen Degeneres Show clips.

Yeah, well.  At least I got some knitting done.  Lately I’ve been carrying my knitting bag around with me like a security blanket, not even taking out the knitting but just…having it there.  Just in case I feel up to it.  Tonight was the first time I actually knitted for I-don’t-kn0w-how-long, though.  Oh, there is a small messy pile of calendar blocks on the other side table.  I shall do some iPhone photo magic:

calendar squares and assorted other shapes

This crappy picture was cunningly taken at arm's length so I don't have to move.

So, I did make some progress with those little guys.  I keep meaning to make a post about them showing them all off, but, you know, stuff happened.

So it’s almost 10 AM now.  (I just noticed that this blog’s time is an hour early.  Wish I knew how to fix that setting.)  I should probably just try to stay up through the day, have caffeine or whatever and try to at least make it to the afternoon and take a nap at most.  I hope I do that.  I might just sleep all day again.

I feel a bit like a real Olympian this week: I’ve been doing emergency medicine while I have a cold at all sorts of crazy hours of the night and trying to get my knitting done while i’m at it. It’s going really, really, surprisingly well so far, but I’m about to go into a bit of a marathon in which I’m going to be on rotation from 3pm-11pm tonight, home from about midnight to 7 AM, off to lectures tomorrow morning, free from 11 AM until 3 PM (home? nap/secret knitting in the library?), and then another 3pm-11 pm shift. It’s not really that many hours of working (19 hours over the course of two days) but the timing makes it impossible to get enough sleep and leaves me with an awkward gap in the middle of the day tomorrow.

WELL, there’s no reason I shouldn’t go into this with an Olympian spirit: I can do this and I can enjoy it and learn from it. I can take a power nap to gain more from my lecture, as recently reported all over the news in a link I don’t have time to add. I can bring my knitting for those awkward gaps or come home and take a short nap if I really need it. And the hard part of the schedule will be over in less than 36 hours, anyway, and I’ll have some time to catch up on sleep, then. And I’ll blog in the spare moments that I should be packing up for school and eating something, too.

The ends are defeated! I finished the ends on the second of David’s hats, a green and black Botanic (Ravelry link), inspired by juniperjune’s, (the first one was black and green since I bought twice the yarn I needed). I also finished defeating the enormous (for me) number of ends on a scarf I started knitting for myself but turned out to be for my mom (the Bumble Up Scarf, similar to the picture but with a nice grey as the main color). I’ll try to post pictures tomorrow, but more likely on Thursday when I’ll be home during the sunny hours.

A large number of hours of Legend of the Stupid were watched during this weaving-in extravaganza.

I know this is one of the most disjointed posts I’ve written lately.  I’m sorry, really.  I’m preoccupied with a number of school and life things that knitting is just not enough to completely soothe.  It helps, but… there’s still a lot on my mind.  I’m really looking forward to graduating and possibly having a chance to actually settle into a more routine existence where my biggest hurdle is actually how big my stash is or how many projects I still have on the needles.  (I can hope, anyway…)

I knitted during my rotation!  This is big news.  I can’t believe I made it happen.

I know, this sounds like an overreaction.  But it’s kind of a big deal for me that I pushed myself out of the rut.  I am so awful at changing habits in general so it’s really good when I can make myself do something that I’ve wanted but struggled to do.

You can basically follow the story over in the twitter box I just stuck in the sidebar.  But to be more bloggy about it, I took a lunch hour to go to the libray and do some knitting.  I wanted to find a place where I didn’t feel like too many people would be looking at me (my knitting confidence has taken a bit of a hit from my first teacher-asks-me-not-to-knit experience, which I’ll post about another time).  I went to the top floor and checked out the periphery of the library and I found the perfect knitting/napping area.  This place has reclining nap chairs (yay medical school library?) which could hardly be better for knitting if they were designed for it.  They face windows (natural light!) and are secluded from other library areas by bookcases.

My spot
The chair
Chart, I missed you.
Warm lapful of knitting (this is going to be a great throw!)
I still know how!
The sunlight was so perfect!

Enough gratuitous pictures for you?  It’s a real knitting blog, now!

I brought my knitting with me to school.  I brought my knitting to school in a hopital. Yeah, that’s right (um, bitches?  I’m supposed to say “bitches,” here, I think?), I’m on rotation and I am going to freaking find some time to knit, already.

I’ll try to snap some iPhone shots of myself hiding in the library with my knitting later.  Yes, that is my plan.  Me, medical library, knitting, and possibly a library-approved drinking container of coffee.  I am a wild woman.

N…no.

There just didn’t seem to be enough time. I think I kind of ended up trading my knitting time for exciting new food available at the new local bar. It was worth it, I think, but..

But…

I really really want to break this pattern. I want to churn out the finished-ends-weaved-in-perfect-in-every-way-except-for-whatever-mistakes-that-are-totally-forgiveable objects. I want to wear a different hat every day (when it’s cold enough). I want to make every pair of exciting gloves with transformation power that I see. I want to cover my apartment in throws and cabled pillows. I want to be a knitter again!

…I also want a nap. Is that going to win today? (Well, after I get home in a few more hours…)

I started this blog on the spur of the moment because lately I’ve been having trouble actually getting any knitting done, and I’m trying to restart myself. I read knitting blogs and book, I’m listening to a knitting audiobook, and often I drag my knitting around with me and sometimes even pull it out but don’t get started.

I have to admit it. I’m in a knitting slump.

As much as I want to get the beautiful projects done, as much as I want to master new patterns and as much as I want that feeling of relaxation and productivity from feeling the yarn move through my fingers and into that magically-growing fabric, I haven’t gotten so much as a row done in at least a month. It’s been years since I posted any pictures or any projects in Ravelry. I’ve even tried to motivate myself to finish things by going on a yarn diet until I finish some of my projects (and not even disliked ones)!

So maybe putting it out there will help kick-start me out of this weird lack-of-knitting habit and back into my true existance as a knitter. It couldn’t hurt, could it? (Especially when I’m blogging during, ahem, borrowed time during school and not cutting into possible knitting time at all.)

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